We Made It Through Monday

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If I could quickly transform these thought waves to patterns, I’d probably be somewhere orbiting next to Saturn,

or swimming in an ocean of my own free will amidst lost emotions…

contemplating my destiny next to a fork in the road of fiery notions

Here comes the Yellow Brick Road…Karma is like that sometimes

Perhaps the crossroads of my soul carry a touch to a game thats long been sold

But it ain’t no hearts I’m after…broke a few of my own,

been living life as such since the day I left home

I’d much rather bury a hatchet than a casket but sometimes we just miss the signs

flag on the play and we just get left behind

It’s Heaven we’re all after but sometimes just forget to unwind

My image may not be the same as yours but we all deserve to enjoy quality time.

It All Happened On The Beaches of Hot Sands…pt.3

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Briefly Interrupted,

Bewildered, our minds freed in the distance I noticed.

Gifted in our antics we both lost focus.

As we lay in the consequences of our very own little thrill

No…was never an option when the attraction was brewing still

You adjusted your sundress making access much easier

Perhaps a few snaps on instagram

catching you in those positions would make things a bit sleazier

Embedded in the quiet of still…just you and I….upon a desolate land

Warmth made whole and souls bonding as the effects of our auras

cause ripples on the shores of the Beaches of Hot Sands…

We’ll Always Be Brothers

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Am I not the keeper of my brother?
I learned to read from obituaries
I understand that I need not worry but for so many others… I’m concerned..
Soaking in the flames lost in a darkness we steal from ourselves here and then
Tears frozen in this cold world from the chains of hypocrisy again.
who said a king at heart could never show pain
From the depths of his soul
I feel a slight quiver from hearts of the same
A world of villains thrive while the heroes are gone… who can you blame?
although my divine attributes do sometimes tend to fail
the life I know saw passed these atrocities
while others minds still seem to be staled.
Not that I’m complaining or grown frail
there is just so much you could not guess
and if I’m not a keeper of my brother
the ideas of servitude have all gone a mess.
From dog tags lost to those fallen by the hands of another…
We’ve clearly lost focus with no attempts to get it better.
Through the storm we are still brothers.
Birthed by different but of the same Mother…Earth.
When did we stop being brothers?
I thought I could count on you and from me you can feel the same.
Instead we’re playing games…lost hugs and misdirected our love.
For what?

Sun Gazing

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Show me the way to be a better man to you,

I know I’m useful but may not be quite what you’re used to

Mold me as I mold you, don’t scold me because I would never scold you

I mean, when you speak I listen,

Although my thoughts you keep dismissing

I’ve tried to make you understand I’m not perfect

But know that you have my undivided…attention

Not to mention…your semblance places me in another dimension

And it doesn’t even compare to your intellect & grace

When I look into your face…. I see my Earth Tone Queen

I mean, I see a star…

I see a flower…beautifully blossomed

And yet so solemn, without a caretaker to render

The proper nurturing…I am

Don’t deny me, help me to refine thee….

Fertilize my soul, together as we grow old

I see you as the fruit sowed while I am groomed,

To be a better  provider

Its more than just a seed planted

and sowed, more like living in the Now

I see the reason I have always appreciated your smile.

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…almost gone

Her, Me, & My A.D.H.D.

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There’s things I wanna do,

That I know you like too.

Riding the freeway passing the flask to you taking 2 sips,

As my hand slides in between those hips

No I don’t  drive and drink,

I just like to ride and think….lol

Love when you giggle, rub my hand, & give me those eyes…..mmmm delicious.

I can tell that you’re tipsy,

We don’t have to make it to our destination for you to kiss me.

I’ll pull over right here if you feel the heat,

I got a blanket for the hood, plus there’s plenty of backseat.

I don’t want no good girl, they ain’t good for me….

Bad girls offer so much more excitement you see.

Besides I need a remedy for my A.D.H.D.

Is it right for me to hinder you, knowing what you’ve been thru,

Or should I be a fill-in so the next no smooth talker doesn’t sweet-talk you

Sweep you off your feet, only to not catch you in return.

Love is something I yearn….but not right now

I’d much rather just make you smile…

As long as you can keep me on my toes.

But she can’t be lazy, her motivation & support has to drive me crazy.

Only cause she pushes me to do more…her mind I want to explore

Financial security and doing all those freaky things are a plus,

I need you to arouse my emoption every once and while…..just so I can tell you hush.

I don’t want no good girl, they ain’t good for me….

Bad girls offer so much more excitement you see.

Besides I need a remedy for my A.D.H.D.

You can grab my “D” in public you see… girl I ain’t scared.

But when I tell you “I’m ready, and let’s sneak to the dressing room…be prepared.

Don’t be shy when I nibble your ear whispering something during a movie,

Or I sit you down and tell you that you Move me…

Spiritually and beyond.

Don’t trip when I say life goes on…with or without…because you feel the same.

Not saying that the others are lame…..it’s just

I don’t want no good girl, they ain’t good for me….

Bad girls offer so much more excitement you see.

Besides I need a remedy for my A.D.H.D.

I guess I’m enticed by your gist….I can’t resist

Excuse me when I grab that, when your brother and mother not looking,

Or if I tell you I want you for my dessert when you in the kitchen cooking.

Now, on second thought..when I’m ready for a wife….

That good girl may be what I need in my life

But until then……

I don’t want no good girl, they ain’t good for me….

Bad girls offer so much more excitement you see.

Besides I need a remedy for my A.D.H.D.

On Another Cloud Tonight…NOte 9

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Setting all love aside, lets talk about life…tonight.

What if life wanted your side of the story?

Every since my youth that’s a question I’ve been asking myself for years,

My vision is so often blurred by the many tears

that so often occur I very seldom get to witness my own fears.

What if life decided to take some of the sweeter things

Not knowing if you took away the materialistic filth

life can bear some of the more sweeter things

if we could stop letting influence of debit cards money and the myriad of mental scars…ruin.

What if life decided not to look me in the eyes

Or just ride by as I stood on the cliff of life’s flatline

On no this ain’t your regularly scheduled program especially when you

Merged thru many fatalities while facilitating life’s wrongs from the sidelines

I just don’t want us to let the nonsense continue to run thru our veins

Not seeing the bigger picture or appreciating the little things.

Breath…..feel that….Life.

My Life is Truth

What if life wanted my side of the story in facts?

Intoxicating high as a newborn coming into this world at birth…

…question is

Will he return to the dirt knowing the purpose of this life’s worth?

What if life decided not to love any more…

I mean….god is there working silently,

If peace isn’t made, subconsciously asking will He still just EJECT me….

As the program of the masses continue we let the bed bugs of society and the ignorance

divide us…there will be no middle class only poor and rich

before mankind himself is next up on the endangered list.

The Rights of Life Come with Sacrifice…Freedom

“You mean I can’t stay here forever?”

This seems to be the question many find themselves asking as death creeps onto the doorsteps of life.  The bad news is…at some point you’re going to die.  The good news is….well, you’re going to die.  The fear of death is one I overcame at a very young age that I attest mainly to my fascination for the spiritual & unknown.  As far back as I can remember the fascination of life and death only grew after a near death experience(drowning).  From that point on, the mystery that so many fear became a tool for truly LIVING.  After the death of my dear godmother, grandmother, other relatives, and friends the thought of no longer being in the physical seemed to be more intriguing than frightening.

If we place those fears and distractions aside for a moment there is so much more to life that we fail to see.  Live everyday like it’s your last and the worry of death tends to fade.  Exercise your right in servitude and the solemnness will slowly  die.  That’s my mantra.  I find it disturbing that we still fear one another simply because of the color of ones skin, or the god they may worship.  Why can’t we all just be?

I recently had a conversation with my mother who I believe is beginning to go through a denial of death.  To deny death is to shun life, for it is another chapter in this journey.  Besides, you can deny it as much as you want…it’s still going to happen.   In the book,” The Many Faces of Death” by Jacqui James she states,”

One of the faces of death, a very common one, is the

terrified face. It is the face seen by those who have ignored

death throughout their lives and who have

refused point blank either to talk or to think about death,

regarding the subject as morbid and one which, if

indulged in, would hasten their own deaths.

This superstitious attitude is a common human failing:

‘ignorance’ of anything found unpleasant or threatening.

 

This is so true and the face that I firmly believe mother is dealing with.  I’ve tried comfort but that doesn’t fly over too well.  I’m at peace simply knowing that I have attempted.  With the recent loss of her brother and close friend in her religious sect, time is slowly withering away and she is now realizing this.  The relationship I have with her is one that has been off and on, for years for a number of reasons.  One of those reasons has been my determination to follow a path of my own; straying away from the limitations and struggles of so many “religions” these days.  Following a path of my own I was able to awaken the Giant within & overcome those difficulties that many face when it comes to creation, life and death. Once embarking on this voyage of self and harmonizing the world within, the hereafter is no more of a threat  to me than say, a morning jog, or going to the grocery store.  I find it saddening when I look in her eyes and others who’ve followed the tutelage of so-called “leaders” or sects whose only true motive is profit- only to find them suffering and fearful in the end?  To be misled and not ask why is asking for your own demise in any case.  I pray that some sort of solace does rise in their hearts and minds.  Death is something that is within each and every one of us when we are born.  Death is the quiet passenger tagging along on this highway of experiences.   Along the way, it simply became another one of the fears we conjured up to this point in life.  We have yet to scratch the surface of the “tomb” that we currently embody as life.  From the most logically perspective, how can you be afraid of something you know nothing about?

 

At some point, we must all fly away … Maybe we’ll meet again next lifetime…

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